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My friend, Newscoma, has a touching post on the 9th anniversary of her mother’s death.
I may be 41, but you never get over losing a parent. The cancer she had was really horrible and we saw this lovely, vibrant woman disintegrate before our eyes over a period of 14 months.
Go read the rest.
15 hours ago
I lost my my Mum 22 July 2009 after she was diagnosed with oesophageal cancer and having a major operation to have her oesophagus rebuilt.
The operation went badly wrong and she suffered huge complications after it. Over a horrific 2 week period of her deteriorating, and having a lung removed we eventually had to make the decision to switch off her life support machine as we were told she had had a major stroke and would never recover. I remember thinking, this isnt happening to us, I thought I had stepped into someone elses life.
I was 7 months pregnant with my first baby and my lovely Dad was about to celebrate his 70th birthday, they had been married for over 40 years.
I cry nearly every day because I miss her so much, i cry after I have spoken to my Dad and I hear the sadness in his voice, I cry when I look at my now 10 month old daughter because I know she would have loved her granny. Everything just still feels so sad and I dont remember what laughter feels like really. I try and remember if I told her that I loved her in the hospital before the complications occurred and if I was holding her hand but it all seems such a blur and so painful. I just want all of this hurt and sadness to go away but I know it wont…its been over a year now since I saw her last and I feel so sad every day. My mother in law also died last year in Feb from breast cancer so my husband is also grieving and we have two lovely Dads left who are trying to rebuild their lives at the ages of 67 and 71. Our daughter has brought us so much love and joy since she has been born but her birth was tinged with sadness because of our grief but we are reminded that each of our Mums are part of her.
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6 days ago
I have read everybody’s post and i understand how it feels to loose a mother, i lost my mother recently to cancer of unknown origin and i still cannot get over the fact that she is gone. Its been 6weeks and it feels like she is on a trip where she will call me to let me know she is back. She was my best friend, my confidant someone i could talk to anytime without being judged, she accepted me for who i am and never any bad word or put me down. Always advising me of how i could make things better. July 11th 2010 will be a date i will never forget, i believe i started grieving may 19th when i was advised she had advanced cancer. i love her too much and will forever grieve her loss.
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482 days ago
my condolences , Im 25 Years old and just lost my mom 3 weeks ago to cancer too , I also took care of her for the last 2 years of her life and watched as her health grew so weak and then to be by her side when she passed in the hospital room. I love my mother so much and miss her much I was the only thing in this world that mattered to her and I am her Mini Me. I have mixed feeling everyday about her passing one day Im ok with it then Im not, I feel like crying a lot but try to be strong too. I think alot about it and I have had a couple dreams about her but i can’t remeber them that much. I like reading these post and thought I would share my story. I can only think that she is no longer in pain and is looking down on me everyday.
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815 days ago
I wish I could tell you that when she dies you will be able to move on and not think about it any more. I can’t do that. What I do say to you is that take a much time as you need to greive your lost. There will be days when life will be unbarable, but this to shall pass. Life will slowly become normal again. Two years after the death of my mother I still have my moments when the anger rushes back in and it seem so unfair. Yet, I have gotten past the pain and hurt and you will too.
Peace and blessing,
Linda
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822 days ago
I lost my dad in 1992, 3 weeks after my first child was born and 4 days after my 30th b’day! Needless to say, I hardly noticed turning 30. I was very close to my dad and with every year that goes by, on his b’day I think about how old he would be today or how much he would enjoyed my kids. But now I am dealing with my mother going through esophageal cancer and how we are grabbing at every last straw to find her some relief from the nausea and having to eat through a feeding tube. I am scared to death of what this awful beast is going to do to her to make her last weeks more difficult then they have already been. I’m not only scared for her but selfishly, for myself and I am going to deal with losing my mom, my best friend. Tomorrow she starts palliative radiation as she couldn’t handle the way chemo effected her. They are pretty much doing this to see if it will shrink the tumor that is keeping her nauseated all the time. The radiation might be too much so we just have to try and see. My mom is tough and is not going to go down without a fight. She has already battled two other primary cancers in her life, breast and ovarian. I need somebody to tell me how to prepare for this because just writing this is killing me. I already miss her.
Sarah
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